I have been trying to focus on the blessings that are coming out of this experience.
Probably the biggest one that I can see right now is all the time I have had to snuggle with Zack before the baby arrives. He can be quite an active toddler, but he is so loving too. Even before Zack was born he would settle against my hand when I would touch my belly. Anytime he gets upset or feels frustrated he will tell me he needs snuggles and than everything is okay again in his world.
Friends from my past have gone out of their way to send cards and care packages. I could never express to them how much their thoughts and prayers have meant to me and to our family. Their kindness and creativity has given me ideas on ways to help other HG moms and families once we are through this.
Zack has been able to spend a considerable amount of time with several of his grandparents. Anytime someone comes to the door he assumes it’s a grandpa or grandma coming to see him.
A dear friend of ours was coming over weekly to run errands, straighten up the house, play with Zack, and visit with me. Knowing she was coming forced me to accept help which was so greatly needed at the time. And having someone visit that I could talk to during the weeks that I was down because of the Placenta Previa was wonderfully uplifting.
My sister, Jason’s aunt, and our friend made grocery store trips and kept us stocked on food so that Jason could focus on Zack when he was home.
I couldn’t even begin to count how many loads of laundry my parents and Jason’s mom have done for us in the last few months. That is on top of all the meals that they put in our freezer so our family didn’t have to eat fast food so often.
My placenta has moved and is not a concern anymore!
Since we have already been down this road before Jason is more prepared and knowledgeable about what to expect. He has been very supportive and understanding. Which has been helpful because he will tell me I can’t do things when I think I should be able to. It saves us a lot of problems later. Sometimes I want to push myself farther that I really can and that leads to days of being extra sick.
It’s good to look for the positive things in any situation. It seems to make the negative a bit more bearable. I know we have been blessed in more ways than what I have listed here, I just can’t think of them all right now.
I am looking forward to the day when I can be a blessing in someone elses HG pregnancy the way that so many people have been to us. It will give some purpose to this awful, dark time in our lives.
Only 12 more weeks to go!