Blessings

I have been trying to focus on the blessings that are coming out of this experience.

Probably the biggest one that I can see right now is all the time I have had to snuggle with Zack before the baby arrives. He can be quite an active toddler, but he is so loving too. Even before Zack was born he would settle against my hand when I would touch my belly. Anytime he gets upset or feels frustrated he will tell me he needs snuggles and than everything is okay again in his world.

Friends from my past have gone out of their way to send cards and care packages. I could never express to them how much their thoughts and prayers have meant to me and to our family. Their kindness and creativity has given me ideas on ways to help other HG moms and families once we are through this.

Zack has been able to spend a considerable amount of time with several of his grandparents. Anytime someone comes to the door he assumes it’s a grandpa or grandma coming to see him.

A dear friend of ours was coming over weekly to run errands, straighten up the house, play with Zack, and visit with me. Knowing she was coming forced me to accept help which was so greatly needed at the time. And having someone visit that I could talk to during the weeks that I was down because of the Placenta Previa was wonderfully uplifting.

My sister, Jason’s aunt, and our friend made grocery store trips and kept us stocked on food so that Jason could focus on Zack when he was home.

I couldn’t even begin to count how many loads of laundry my parents and Jason’s mom have done for us in the  last few months. That is on top of all the meals that they put in our freezer so our family didn’t have to eat fast food so often.

My placenta has moved and is not a concern anymore!

Since we have already been down this road before Jason is more prepared and knowledgeable about what to expect. He has been very supportive and understanding. Which has been helpful because he will tell me I can’t do things when I think I should be able to. It saves us a lot of problems later. Sometimes I want to push myself farther that I really can and that leads to days of being extra sick.

It’s good to look for the positive things in any situation. It seems to make the negative a bit more bearable. I know we have been blessed in more ways than what I have listed here, I just can’t think of them all right now.

I am looking forward to the day when I can be a blessing in someone elses HG pregnancy the way that so many people have been to us. It will give some purpose to this awful, dark time in our lives.

Only 12 more weeks to go!

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The End of Akalooland

Well, the last few days have not been great. I rested a lot last week in hopes that we could do something over the weekend. Saturday I made it to the mall long enough to get new cell phones and then sick all the way home. 

Sunday may have been my last day in Akalooland, our churches children’s program. I didn’t feel well at all before we left, but of course told myself I was fine and went anyway. Ten minutes into the morning I had to leave. That was a huge bummer! Jason had been asking me the night before how much longer I really thought I could do it. My answer, until the baby is here! Again, thinking I could do more than is really possible. I made it a whole month longer this time than I did with Zack. So, that’s a blessing.

I sure am glad the church lobby has couches! It made a comfy spot to lay down and wait for Jason to come find me.

Sunday afternoon was spent sleeping and laying around. Followed by Monday of laying on the couch as much as possible with a 2 year old wanting to play. I woke up so sick on Tuesday Jason had to go in to work late so he could take care of Zack while we waited for my dad to come. Zack had a fun day. He helped Grandpa do laundry (which hadn’t been touched since Jason’s mom helped last week). Have I mentioned what a blessing grandparents are?

More HG specific update…The dizziness and faintness seems to be starting. I don’t think it was this early in our 1st pregnancy. The scary part is, last time it led to blackouts and being homebound for months! It also led to lots of tests by my midwife. The medication, Zofran, had been causing me to have elevated liver enzymes. Because my liver was being affected from the HG my midwife and GI Dr decided I needed to be switched to an OB for the rest of my pregnancy. That was a hard switch, I really liked my midwife and trusted her. The Dr I was sent to came highly recommended, Jason’s aunt had seen him for 2 pregnancies. He is who I am seeing again this time. 

I tried several different medications last time in hopes that something else would work and I could stop the Zofran. It didn’t. I have been trying to take only two doses instead of three this time hoping to avoid any liver issues. While doing more research I have read about Unisom and Vit B6. I plan to ask my Dr about that next week. I honestly do not have high hopes of it working, but maybe it would help some.

I also am trying to accept the fact that I need to let go of the housework, laundry, and cooking for now and focus any energy I do have on Zack. Being a mom you think you can do it all. Sometimes you just can’t. So for the sake of Zack and this baby it is time to let go and ask others for help. Please pray for me with that!