Blessings

I have been trying to focus on the blessings that are coming out of this experience.

Probably the biggest one that I can see right now is all the time I have had to snuggle with Zack before the baby arrives. He can be quite an active toddler, but he is so loving too. Even before Zack was born he would settle against my hand when I would touch my belly. Anytime he gets upset or feels frustrated he will tell me he needs snuggles and than everything is okay again in his world.

Friends from my past have gone out of their way to send cards and care packages. I could never express to them how much their thoughts and prayers have meant to me and to our family. Their kindness and creativity has given me ideas on ways to help other HG moms and families once we are through this.

Zack has been able to spend a considerable amount of time with several of his grandparents. Anytime someone comes to the door he assumes it’s a grandpa or grandma coming to see him.

A dear friend of ours was coming over weekly to run errands, straighten up the house, play with Zack, and visit with me. Knowing she was coming forced me to accept help which was so greatly needed at the time. And having someone visit that I could talk to during the weeks that I was down because of the Placenta Previa was wonderfully uplifting.

My sister, Jason’s aunt, and our friend made grocery store trips and kept us stocked on food so that Jason could focus on Zack when he was home.

I couldn’t even begin to count how many loads of laundry my parents and Jason’s mom have done for us in the  last few months. That is on top of all the meals that they put in our freezer so our family didn’t have to eat fast food so often.

My placenta has moved and is not a concern anymore!

Since we have already been down this road before Jason is more prepared and knowledgeable about what to expect. He has been very supportive and understanding. Which has been helpful because he will tell me I can’t do things when I think I should be able to. It saves us a lot of problems later. Sometimes I want to push myself farther that I really can and that leads to days of being extra sick.

It’s good to look for the positive things in any situation. It seems to make the negative a bit more bearable. I know we have been blessed in more ways than what I have listed here, I just can’t think of them all right now.

I am looking forward to the day when I can be a blessing in someone elses HG pregnancy the way that so many people have been to us. It will give some purpose to this awful, dark time in our lives.

Only 12 more weeks to go!

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What’s next…Placenta Previa

I started my post on Tuesday by saying I was hesitantly optimistic. Apparently I was right to be hesitant. We had our 19 week ultrasound yesterday. The baby was super active! The technician had a hard getting pictures because the little one kept moving on her. 🙂 I already knew we had an active little one in there. This baby can flip around for hours in the evening! Good thing it’s still tiny enough not to cause mommy any pain.

Everything seemed to be going well until the ultrasound lady went to get the pictures and came back saying she needed one more. I’ve had enough ultrasounds between Zack and this baby to know the abreviations for cervix and placenta. When she left the room I knew something wasn’t right. Jason kept telling it was, she probably just forgot a picture. When she came back with the pictures she wasn’t smiling, it was like she forgot and reminded herself to put on the happy “everything’s fine” smile for us.

So, just when I was thinking I might be getting back to more of a “normal” life with the help of the Zofran, something else comes up. The Dr informed us that I have Placenta Previa. One of my first thoughts was, can’t we get a break!? Now that my nausea and vomiting was getting under control and I was starting to be able to play more with Zack it was been taken away again. The Dr said I can only lift him in/out of his bed and car seat when needed. I also have to take it easy and not lift things.

I’m realizing today that it is much easier to be down when you physically feel horrible, but it is really hard when you’re body is finally feeling somewhat better. Zack has had many breakdowns today because he wants to be carried. He still loves to be held. Daddy’s arms are going to be full when he gets home tonight.

We have another ultrasound in a month to see how things are going. I looked up a few articles on placenta previa today and they all said this was an uncommon pregnancy complication. So, add that to the rarity of HG, and elevated liver enzymes from Zofran. I do not think my body likes pregnancy.

Only about 20 weeks left and we get to meet this little one!